my beautiful boy, missing you as always and love you with all my heart as always! i want you to no that i will never ever ever stop speaking your name and loving you! you will always be my little boy! i started my job today it went really well, i prayed to you to look after me and make me full of confidence & to watch over me and you did it for me my beautiful boy:) so thank you. im off back to work tomorrow again but im in 1pm - 7pm so another 6 hour shift and on saturday i have a 12hour shift witch is going to ache my legs but its going to be worth it:) im hoping to do my nvq3 whilst working so fingers crossed it all goes to plan witch im hoping it will as i have you as my angel looking over me:) nanny brought me a really nice picture frame with some really touching words its beautiful, i have it on my bedroom wall with your picture:) im always looking at your photo's and wondering what you would be looking like now? and how my life would be if you was still here. :/. it's just so hard at the moment gusting to life without you being here:/ i think its just as hard for everyone else too. sometimes i feel you and sometimes i dont :/ when im calm i feel you more but when im upset i never feel you :/ still ask myself to this day why why why? but i guess ill never no why until we meet again. i cant wait to have you back when i join you in heaven when its mummy's time.im going away on monday with jack and his dad. were going to padstow for may day and ill be meeting the last few people in jack's family then i would have meet them all, so many of them to meet:) but i no your going to be in my heart and beside me in your spirit so ill be okay. well my beautiful boy, im going to stop writing now. its just not the same writing on here when you should be with me :'( :'( please keep me strong, i want you to be proud of me when you look down from heaven. i love you millions my beautiful angel. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxmissing you everyday of every second that goes by. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Love Mummy xxxxxxxxxxx
This candle was first lit on the 25th of April 2012 and will burn for 87 years 11 months and 13 days.